Kelly Brook has opened up about motherhood and marriage.
The 39-year-old has always been positive about marrying and having a family of her own but it seems that her desires have changed.
She told Closer magazine, ''I'm happy but I still have my hang-ups. I've come to terms with the fact I'm not going to be a young, skinny model forever. But these days, it's more like, 'I'm not married, I've not had kids - where am I at in my career?'''
She continued, ''I do get anxious about whether I want children and to get married, I think about those things a lot. I don't know if it's for me, to be honest, and I think that's why it makes me feel anxious. I'm so happy with how everything's going in my life - I suppose I don't see where it would fit in right now."
Kelly, who has been dating Frenchman Jeremy Parisi for three years, also spoke about motherhood on Loose Women where she blamed herself for not starting a family in her 20s.
She said, ''I just feel like, If I'd known in my 20s how difficult having children in my 30s would be, I think I would have made different choices.''
She suffered two miscarriages in her 30s when she was with ex-fiance Thom Evans - one at six months and another later on the same year.
She continued, ''I hit 30 and I got pregnant, and I said to myself, right, "I am not really ready to have children, but this is an amazing opportunity". I hadn't planned to get pregnant, but unfortunately, I had a miscarriage very late along the line.''
She added, ''I think women think you can go through your life and have a baby whenever you want, well some can and some can't. And I don't think I really realised that and I got so caught up in my world. Now I don't know if I am going to able to carry a baby, I don't know if that is in my future now. I do feel, not regret, but I think [I might have done things differently], I just felt I was in that category of work, work, work, and all these opportunities.''
Kelly went on to say that she is happy with her life but having children is something that weighs heavily on her mind.
She said, ''I I feel like now I am kind of up against it. I've got money, my own home and I've got my independence and all these amazing things, but I don't have children.''
We love Kelly's refreshing honesty about the conundrum that women face in deciding whether to get married and have babies, as many of us struggle with it.
