Insomnia makes great writing...
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I wrote this almost exactly a year ago, alot has changed since then but I wanted to share it with all you wonderful mummies anyway....
Today is a day marked in history. My history alone, that I wish to share to all you mothers out there, potentially a few of which, in the same boat of my own.
My week away from turning 1 year old - has fallen asleep. Not just fallen asleep, but she's gone to sleep before 8 on her own. In her cot. In her own room.
The enjoyment I am currently expressing will never be appreciated over a series of words and verbs. Ever.
Although the measurement of sleep deprivation can't be taken until the morning as it's only been a blissful 2 hours so far, I won't get ahead of myself. So this celebration is to be continued...
However for now, let me introduce myself...
My name is Mollie, and I am a 22 year old proud mum of my beautiful defiant daughter Lillie Mae.
I say defiant as already my little miss is showing the characteristics that she clearly got from myself. As a friend sweetly described today, "if she wants it she's got to have it, just like her mother".
And it's this defiance, primarily over sleep in which I have been in an intolerable battle since she blessed me on the 24th April 2014.
I will openly admit that this year has been tough. Amazing and incredible but certainly hard. But my god has it taught me so much, and it's only now I can familiarise myself with the ever inspirational "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger".
She has put me through my paces in so many ways but she has also shaped me matured me and made me look at life in a completely different way.
Now, if I'm honest since I discovered I was pregnant It has always been niggling in my mind about wanting to blog.
Writing has always been my form of clarity and another way in which I feel I can truly be myself. However I never thought I had enough going on in my life to warrant anybody wanting to read what I wrote. But slowly slowly as I've sat in bed at all hours in my interims of lillies awakenings and drove myself mad talking to myself, I have convinced myself that there might be people out there that will seek solace in my ramblings and although soon sometime in hopefully the near future I might not be pulling my hair out because my lack of sleep has turned me insomniac, there will always be something else.
Because as a mum, and especially In my bracket of a 20 something year old mothers, the ocean will never be calm. There's going to be heavy tides, huge waves, ferocious sharks, hungry pirates and I'm even going to prepare myself for a tsunami because after this first year anything can be round that corner still. But thankfully there are so many of us going through this all together, and sometimes it's just better to know that your not paddling through it on your own. A reminder that if you feel like your about to drown in that ocean, I'll be tredding water and blowing you up an armband to help you keep afloat.
Now whilst the silence is golden I shall be taking full advantage of the trash TV stored in my virgin planner, but I'll be back soon.
For now, Mollie xox
Today is a day marked in history. My history alone, that I wish to share to all you mothers out there, potentially a few of which, in the same boat of my own.
My week away from turning 1 year old - has fallen asleep. Not just fallen asleep, but she's gone to sleep before 8 on her own. In her cot. In her own room.
The enjoyment I am currently expressing will never be appreciated over a series of words and verbs. Ever.
Although the measurement of sleep deprivation can't be taken until the morning as it's only been a blissful 2 hours so far, I won't get ahead of myself. So this celebration is to be continued...
However for now, let me introduce myself...
My name is Mollie, and I am a 22 year old proud mum of my beautiful defiant daughter Lillie Mae.
I say defiant as already my little miss is showing the characteristics that she clearly got from myself. As a friend sweetly described today, "if she wants it she's got to have it, just like her mother".
And it's this defiance, primarily over sleep in which I have been in an intolerable battle since she blessed me on the 24th April 2014.
I will openly admit that this year has been tough. Amazing and incredible but certainly hard. But my god has it taught me so much, and it's only now I can familiarise myself with the ever inspirational "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger".
She has put me through my paces in so many ways but she has also shaped me matured me and made me look at life in a completely different way.
Now, if I'm honest since I discovered I was pregnant It has always been niggling in my mind about wanting to blog.
Writing has always been my form of clarity and another way in which I feel I can truly be myself. However I never thought I had enough going on in my life to warrant anybody wanting to read what I wrote. But slowly slowly as I've sat in bed at all hours in my interims of lillies awakenings and drove myself mad talking to myself, I have convinced myself that there might be people out there that will seek solace in my ramblings and although soon sometime in hopefully the near future I might not be pulling my hair out because my lack of sleep has turned me insomniac, there will always be something else.
Because as a mum, and especially In my bracket of a 20 something year old mothers, the ocean will never be calm. There's going to be heavy tides, huge waves, ferocious sharks, hungry pirates and I'm even going to prepare myself for a tsunami because after this first year anything can be round that corner still. But thankfully there are so many of us going through this all together, and sometimes it's just better to know that your not paddling through it on your own. A reminder that if you feel like your about to drown in that ocean, I'll be tredding water and blowing you up an armband to help you keep afloat.
Now whilst the silence is golden I shall be taking full advantage of the trash TV stored in my virgin planner, but I'll be back soon.
For now, Mollie xox
